"Love Yourself Even Though You Suck at Life"

A lot of what we try and do is emotion based. Most of the good stuff in my life is, literally, because I was desperate or because I was angry. All the good stuff in my life is essentially from being an angry person. For me, a lot of the stuff has been trying to be all about "the good stuff." You know, like, I'm wanting to change my life, a little, because of all the nay-sayers. People say, "You can't do it." You just say, "Forget you, yes I can." And yeah, that helps a lot but at the end of the day, everything can't be simply because of something negative. It has to also be something that makes you feel good, and that while you're doing it, you think that it's worth it. I'm trying to mature essentially. Yeah, you know? Things, stuff, words, whatever.

The main thing I want to stress is something that I'm trying to learn myself. Everything in your life doesn't have to be because people picked on you or blah, blah, blah. It's also because you love yourself. Love yourself. It's a hard thing. I still don't love myself. I constantly feel like my "success" is unwarranted. I don't feel like I deserve a lot of the good things in my life. I'm not the best person. It's a weird self-guilt.

If you've heard Bo Burnham's new song "Art is Dead," it just hits me exactly where my mind is. It's this weird feeling of guilt, and I know that I have to get past it because I know that I haven't worked hard for my "success." I mean, I work hard to avoid failures or limit those failures.

I guess the main thing, if you really want to cut to the chase the thing I'm trying to say is: Love yourself because you deserve it even if other people don't see it.